I feel so down…
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I feel so down, so weak.
I can’t keep a happy face to anyone, maybe they’re thinking I am “moody” again. Should I just force myself to smile, to laugh at their jokes so that they wouldn’t think anything negative about me? Don’t get me wrong, I find every single one of it hilarious but what I am feeling right now is so heavy that even the funniest of jokes can’t make me smile. Or maybe I can smile, I don’t know, I can smile but I can’t laugh, or maybe I can laugh but not for long. The reason for this is not them, it never is. How can my only source of support be the reason for my depression. Yeah, that’s right, I am depressed. I’ve experienced depression before. It was about something that I want to keep for myself. Although now that I think about it, this is nothing compared to that one. Maybe I am just sad. Yeah, I think that’s the perfect description. This sadness didn’t come without a reason. I am not crazy to be sad for nothing. I want to talk about why I am sad, but I can’t. I believe that talking about your problems will make it worse. I know that when I am sad, I’ll just let it overwhelm me, allow it to explode, then its will become nothing. Life needs to go on you know. No point in savoring what’s suppose to be bitter. The world will no stop because you’re depressed, down and miserable. Ahh! This is crazy talk. Before I even finished writing this I am okay already. I am fine! Whoever you are reading this, I love yah, thanks for your time.
